I am sorry to hear about all the difficulties you are encountering. Although I do not know why, I know that God has a reason for it. I came across this Scripture verse recently (see below):
Lamentations 3:22-23 & 31-33: “The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning… For no one is abandoned by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.”
The way I see it, we encounter negative situations because God has allowed it, but God is still there to see us through it. We might feel that He is far away or that He has abandoned us, but He hasn’t. He’s still there. We have to believe that He is allowing these things to happen because it will make us a better person– a person who looks more like Jesus. Trust that He will get you through any circumstance He has placed before you– keep your focus on Him. Do not let the situations in your life distract you from your own personal devotions and prayer to Him because He is the only One who can get you through it.
May you feel God’s peace and presence as you face these difficulties, and May you draw strength from Him and His Word.