It’s only been a day and a half since I had my tonsils removed (it feels a lot longer than that though). The hardest part about going into this was not knowing how much pain I would actually feel after the operation. Both the ENT doc and the anesthesiologist said that I would be in a lot of pain, but what does that really mean? Is what I imagined to be “a lot of pain” the same as what they meant?
I am in pain—it’s not excruciating, but it’s to the point that I just want my life to go back to “normal.” I want to talk again, I want to swallow again, I want to run and jump again… but, I can’t even blow my nose or eat “real” food. I ate my second bowl of liquified black bean soup this evening and halfway through it, I felt like gagging— it was the consistency.
I know that I will be better in a couple of weeks, but it’s only been about two days and it feels like an eternity already. I know I need to be patient, but it seems so hard. I can’t imagine what it must be for someone who is in constant pain. My pain should be better in about ten days, so I need to be silent and thank God that all I had was a tonsillectomy.
Romans 12:9-12 says, “…cling to what is good… Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor… Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer” (NIV).
It’s so easy to start wallowing in self-pity, but that’s not how God wants me to react. My situation is only temporary. I need to find the joy even in my momentary pain, and I can’t let my current circumstances distract me from praising God—I must continue to cling to Him. I must continue to pray, not for myself, but for others. I need to stay focused—“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” (1 Cor 10:31).