The New Year is quickly approaching and many people will make resolutions that they may or may not keep. When I first entered 2013 my goal was to have a personal devotion time in addition to the daily Bible reading I had with my husband. It was great for the first couple of months, but slowly the days in between my personal readings grew longer until finally several months passed.
I don’t think I’m busier than anyone else, but I think I am more distracted. Other things grab my attention—Facebook, TV, shopping, etc. A quick look on Facebook can turn into two hours of nothing. I am so tired of wasting time, yet I continue to get drawn into it.
The other day I noticed that Christianbook.com had a clearance sale. Some of their Bible study materials were selling for 49 cents so I bought a few. My intention is to rekindle the passion I have for The Word because the fire that once burned in my heart has become a smoldering pile of ashes.
I felt that my trip to Nepal was a spiritual awakening for me. I didn’t realize that I had ventured so far away from God until He drew me back again. I think it’s our tendency to slowly move away from God and not even realize it. We go to church, we participate in ministry, we do lots of good things, but our relationship with God is strained—it’s like being married and doing all the things married people do—buy groceries together, visit with friends, etc., but when they are alone they don’t even talk to each other in any meaningful way.
Today when my husband and I were reading through Revelations, we came across this passage:
“I know all the things you do, and that you have a reputation for being alive—but you are dead. Wake up! Strengthen what little remains, for even what is left is almost dead. I find that your actions do not meet the requirements of my God. Go back to what you heard and believed at first; hold to it firmly. Repent and turn to me again…” (Rev. 3:1-3, NLT).
I had read these Bible verses many times before but this time it was like God was talking to me. I am like that wayward child—the prodigal daughter— but because He loves me, He is shaking me awake so I can realize how far I have strayed from Him.
I don’t know what kind of relationship you have with God—perhaps it is rich and full, and God doesn’t have to chastise you—this is a blessing. I am just thankful that God has not given up on me, and that He continues to draw me to Him even though I am a broken pot not worth keeping.
Buried in the ashes of my heart are bits of coal that can glow red when the proper material is introduced. My deepest desire is to serve God and to know more about Him, and my goal is to read and study His Word more intentionally in the coming year—everything is possible with God.